mostly i shitpost, but sometimes i talk about things that are interesting to me at the moment, like #music or #gameing / #gaming especially magic the gathering and such. sometime's i'll also post quotes from or thoughts about books i'm reading.
this account is 18+! what i mean by that is that some of my shitposts will contain references to human anatomy, bodily fluids, or sexual acts and they may be un-cwed. i also am over 18, and wish to interact mostly with other adults. sorry kids, but this isn't the account for you.
my account is locked. this is mostly so i can vet new followers before they come in, and also so i can keep bots from following me as well, since most don't honor the #nobot tag.
that's about all you need to know about me that wouldn't go into my bio anyway tbh
a book i am reading about the kent state shootings: the national guard routinely whips up its members into paranoia with impossible rumors, culminating in a member fainting from a panic attack and everyone immediately worries he's been got by a secret sniper
me, living in 2022, the age of havana syndrome and cops getting panic attack because they believed they have overdosed on fetanyl from touching a dollar on the ground: huh, you don't say
i read books about old things, and then it turns out none of this is new and we have been doing this forever
my favorite one of this is "guy does something racist and then when everyone gets mad at him he throws a tantrum about how it's everyone else who's wrong" which, despite seeming like very online behavior, occurred in the late 1800s when a member of the st louis weirdo rich people secret society "the veiled prophets" pissed off the local irish community in st louis by making a "countries of the world" float where the irish were depicted as stereotypical drunks and then melted down about how perfectly unobjectionable it was when it got canned
The following day, the Veiled Prophet for that year, E. C. Simmons, told a reporter that people in the organization felt a general sense of “indignation” about the withdrawal of the float and that “he had offers of over 100 men who expressed themselves as ready to mount the float, gun in hand, and defend it against any and all who might feel inclined to attack it. I tell you, sir, that if anybody thinks that the thing was withdrawn through the want of backbone on the part of the Veiled Prophets . . . he is very much mistaken.”
the spirit of the poster melting down and peeing their pants has been with us throughout all the ages
it's too expensive to contain a deadly illness. anyway why can't i find anyone to do jobs
it's amazing how even as short term thinking as liberal economics can't understand that 1 million workers dying in two years might affect economic growth somehow
saying someone from the distant past "was" gay is projecting 20th and 21st century paradigms of sexuality onto people who didn't see themselves that way. before say, roughly the post WW2 period sexuality was more something you did and less something you were. notably this also erases how the people themselves would have seen themselves. like people in ancient Rome it was more about submission than being gay, which lead to such paradigms as eating your wife's pussy was the gayest thing ever because of it being submission, gayer than fucking a dude in the butt.
"whatever your strategy is, you must figure out what you want to do and why you want to do it. It will be mind-blowing to know this, but consider the fact in every tournament, you will play more games against sideboarded hate cards than against an un-sideboarded deck. In a way, your game 2 and 3 strategy must be equally as good or better than your game 1 strategy. You must decide: Do I go all in on turn one? Do I mulligan to a safer opener? What do I name with Cabal Therapy? What is my role in this game?"
"In similar deck vs. similar deck matchups, there are a couple of things that you want to look at to figure out what role to play:
If you are the beatdown deck, you have to kill your opponent faster than he can kill you. If you are the control deck, you have to weather the early beatdown and get into a position where you can gain card advantage."
"I drag on in this section because it is the most important part of considering whether to play with this deck. You must know Legacy concisely, as well as your metagame, the popular sideboard cards at that given time, and what your card selections do or do not do well against them. There is no secret to the fact that this deck is one of the more easily hated against; your job is to make that hate ineffective, or meager, or just irrelevant. Thus, you must learn before you earn (stupid proverb)."
RThomas' Dredge Primer (Dredge or Die), 2017
Mike Flores' Who's The Beatdown?, 1999
Crowdfunding a bit of aid due to my husband and his mother contracting COVID-19. I have to lose a week of pay and given that I just spent a year unemployed, we don't have any savings to compensate for an event like this.
It's telling that the takeaway most chasers have from being told about the consequences of their behavior is "wow, nobody likes me just because I am into trans people." The first and only thing they know to reach for is the only consideration they ever actually gave, that "my desired partner is trans so this complaint about me relates to that." The end result is that they hear only echoed back to them the same narrative that brought them to a point of criticism.
What's really disturbing is when this narrative becomes leaky, i.e. people other than chasers start to believe that an attraction to trans people alone is enough to qualify someone as a chaser. I recently had a member of my family, straight and cis and in her fifties, describe to me who she believes I am attracted to, i.e. my sexuality, and I did my best to keep my eyes from bugging out of my skull, knowing that she didn't mean to make it sound like I was a chaser, but that in the abstract, this is where it starts and ends for them. It is enormously and horrifyingly instructive to see how straight (in the worst readings of this term, this isn't a Mads thread, sorry) conceptions are built up around where they have the potential for intimate contact with anyone in any way queer.
With that said, their self-conception shows an inversion of this same narrative. To a chaser, transition's primary motivation is precisely to obtain a particular gaze from others, their gaze, in that way. Within this framework, the defining feature of intimacy is their self-stated relationships to these categories. Not only is this enough, that is, their gaze is somehow a gift on its own, but it is all there is to it. These categories are at a perpetual distance, clearly delineated, settled and resolved, and impersonal.
A perfect bubble-like continuum of distance around them, in the exact shape of the Reddit mascot
#nobot | she/her, sie/hir, or xe/xer | aries | ace | trans | "the chill esvrld" -presolace
(?wo)man|.* | Cy for short
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